Just a parent 2

Well lets add to the last blog. Where do I begin? Haven't got a clue.
My daughter calls me and talks for awhile just chit chating away, when I asked what she was doing? she said "I am just sitting in the union at school working on my computer". Now that is not to shocking really, because she is always on her computer for one reason or another. (play or homework, or as she would said doing research?

Then she said just filling out some papers. Well of course you know me (noisy?) no just wondering filling out what. So of course I ask and I am about 95% sure she rolled her eyes. Well she just said just filling out stuff well then I start thinking oh applications she has filled out alot of those and she hasn't heard any answers back yet either. She said no, then I think credit card applications because they say that they seem to try to get college students with no means credit cards and I don't think she needs that too. She said no mom, I would never do that so then I am thinking what so I ask and again I am sure the eyes rolled. She said she was looking into more schools that specialized in biology majors like biological science and of course the mother that I am said "why". I thought you wanted to be a biology teacher and I tht NAU was a great school for teaching degrees and she said I do but I want more? What is more? Well thru talking and getting it out of her, I found out she wants to be a person that works for NASA.

What does that mean to me? Yikes, more debt for her when she gets out of school, a school farther away, and she is growing up more then I am willing to admit. Does that mean that someday she will be at a far away school to learn things that I have no control over, and pray that I have taught her what is right and what is wrong in life. YEP..... Will she pursue this I hope so if this is what she wants to do more then teaching, Does she want to go to the moon, YEP.... Will she? Probably.

I don't really know how to answer all these things that she wants to do in life, I never had dreams. My only dream was to graduate, get out of the house asap, work and maybe someday have a family... Well I have had all those dreams, were they dreams no they were goals and needs the last one just fell into place right were it belonged.
I pray that she finds out what she wants to find out, I also want what is right for her and what God want's for her. Will I worry, of course but when it is right you worry for the right reasons, not out of fear.

One thing I do know if it is God's will and she leans on him then he will answer her prayer.